That Belief Needs To Be forgotten

Here I go off on another tirade
Thinking of you makes me want to rage
I can fill a books every page
I just pray it is with sage

You are so on my mind steeling my time
I know all your reasons and the rhyme
I see the clear picture and it makes me whine
Frustration hollows no improvement with time.

The expectation put on you was to develop and grow
Not be stagnate and become archaic and low
You settled in and did the opposite going slow
It kills you that I understand you so well and know

Your thought process became quite antiquated
Your self involvement grew to portions of epic
You sit there in denial which makes it more tragic
Longing for that one person to appear like magic

You will never admit you are responsible for your own happiness
It’s easier to point the finger and wallow in sadness
Let others think what they like even if you are viewed as worthless
To destroy that perception you’d have to progress and become selfless

Oh hell that’s too much like work forget about that
That’s too much pressure for you when it’s ambition you lack
In stead you wait on a miracle maker to cover your track
Better they pick up any an all slack
You know better…that notion is whack
You need a wake up call or perhaps a smack

Your connections to those in your life are non existent
Being stone walled for so long they are no longer persistent
Now several relationships are on the verge of extinction
One would think you would have seen you dads correlation

Sorry to say there is a parallel
You know it is true you are not an imbecile
First step is facing facts and acknowledging the trouble
Try opening up yourself and letting in another

It takes a lot of work to make a relationship thrive
It takes two making an effort to keep it alive
Learning to listen and maybe counting to five
It isn’t good keeping your feelings in a hive

The key to it all is good communication
Being open, honest, understanding developing the vocation
It is going to be hard with your current location
However it can be done with a bit of innovation

The key to being loved is loving yourself first
How can you love someone else if you don’t love yourself first
Your self loathing and dislike of self is the worst
No, your distrust of others and that wall you have up is the worst

You have to give up on the notion you are fringed
That people who love you are seriously unhinged
I hear the things you say and they make me cringe
Circumstance, status and supposed curses clouds like a grey tinge

Your lack of self belief has you so trodden
You are so blind to yourself it is disheartening
Stop telling yourself that you are rotten
Oh babe, that belief needs to be forgotten