Born Again!

Born again, what exactly does hat mean? For years when people asked me what my faith or religion was I would say I was a “Born Again” or Non-Denominational. Ha! I have to laugh at my ignorance. What was that supposed to mean? No wonder my children look at me confused. I still looked the same. Walked, talked and acted the same. Granted I have a belief system that gives me a conscience and I follow the Ten Commandments. That is why I am married however celibate. I separated from my husband in 1998; we tried again to live as a married coupled again in Nov. 2004. We split again 01/13/2005. I have now tried divorcing him three times, each time thwarted. I look at it this way. If God in His all mighty power approved of the divorce, He would have allowed it to go through. I know people will disagree with me…if you think I should be divorced then help me to be so! That is all I can say on that matter.

I am not in a physical relationship with my husband. We are housemates, along with our two sons, our grandson, our grandson's mom, and my parents. He moved back; he had been living in Florida for the last six years, for the birth of our grandchild. He was staying with his sister and her family, however he out stayed his welcome. On top of all of that, he now has MS (Multiple Sclerosis). He had nowhere else to go until he works out social security insurance. What was I supposed to do, tell our children to bad so sad? He should have thought of all that before he moved back from Florida. Just because he wants things to be does not mean he gets to have his way. (I have to remind myself: HE HAS M.S.!!) If you want him, he can live with you. He is not my dad, I am taking care of my dad, and you take care of yours. Yeah. I could go on and on... W*W*J*D (He wouldn’t have married in the first place!!!) No! He would heal Rick and be loving and kind to him. I pray for Rick. If he does not want to accept Yahshua as his Lord and Savior, but God wants him...then I have to reason that that is why I am still married. May have something to do with the fact that I have prayed for all my children to be saved. Perhaps if I am divorced my children will no longer be sanctified I believe I read that in Corinthians…WOW! I do know my bible!

1Cor. 7:10 And to the married I command, not I, but the Master: A wife should not separate from a husband. 11But if she is indeed separated, let her remain unmarried or be restore to favour with her husband, and let her husband not send away a wife. 12And to the rest I say, not the Master: if any brother has an unbelieving wife, and she thinks well to live with him, let him not send her away. 13And a woman who has an unbelieving husband has been set-apart in the wife, and the unbelieving wife has been set-apart in the husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but now they are set-apart.

What does this have to do with being born again…actually it has quite a bit to do with it. Correct me if you think I am wrong. Based on

Isaiah 1:4 Alas, sinning nation, a people loaded with crookedness, a seed of evil-doers, sons acting corruptly! They have forsaken Yahweh, they have provoked the Set-apart One of Yisrael, they went backward.

5Why should you be beaten any more? You continue in *apostasy! All the head is sick and all the heart faints. 6From the sole of the foot to the head, there is no soundness in it - wounds and bruises and open sores; they have not been closed or bound up or soothed with ointment. 7Your land is laid waste, your cities are burned with fire, strangers devour your land in your presence. And it is laid waste, as overthrown by strangers. 8And the daughter of Tsiyon is left as a booth in a vineyard, as a hut in a garden of cucumbers, as a besieged city. 9 Unless Yahweh of hosts had left to us a small remnant, we would have become like Sedom, we would have been made like Amorah. 10Hear the word of the Yahweh, you rulers of Sedom; give ear to the Torah of our Elohim, you people of Amorah! 11”Of what use to Me are your many slaughterings?” declares Yahweh. “I have had enough of burnt offerings of rams, and the fat of fed beasts. I do not delight in the blood of bulls, or of lambs or goats. 12 “When you come to appear before Me, who has required this from your hand, to trample My courtyards? 13 “Stop bringing futile offerings, incense, it is an abomination to Me. New Moons, Sabbaths, the calling of meetings – I am unable to bear unrighteousness and assembly. 14“My being hates your New Moons and your appointed times, they are a trouble to Me, I am weary of bearing them. 15 “And when you spread out your hands, I hide My eyes from you; even though you make many prayers, I do not hear. Your hands have become full of blood. 16“Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean; put away the evil of your doings from before My eyes. Stop doing evil! 17“Learn to do good! Seek right-ruling reprove the oppressor, defend the fatherless, plead for the widow. 18“Come now, and let us reason together,” says Yahweh. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool. 19 If you submit and obey, you shall eat the good of the land; 20 but if you refuse and rebel, you shall be devoured by the sword,” for the mouth of Yahweh has spoken

*the renunciation (a denial or rejection of something or somebody, usually for moral or religious reasons) of a religious or political belief or allegiance

~*~ Just want you to be clear what apostasy means. ~*~

What this verse is saying to me is…if you know you are doing something wrong... KNOW it! You feel it in your gut when you are not positive…that is actually the Holy Spirit guiding you. He is speaking to you using your conscience and you ignore it and continue to do it…you are knowingly committing a sin. If you ask for forgiveness and then do it again…you do not repent…you just figure you will go and ask for forgiveness God understands…He made you. It is His fault you cannot control yourself. Yeah right! That is why you give yourself to God and ask Yahushua into yourself. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. All things are possible through Yahushua Messiah our Lord and Savior.

Matthew 12:30 “He who is not with Me is against Me, and he who does not gather with Me scatters abroad. 31”Because of this I say to you, all sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven men, but the blasphemy against the Spirit shall not be forgiven men. 32”And whoever speaks a word against the Son of Adam, it shall be forgiven him, but whoever speaks against the Set-apart Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, either in this age or in the age to come.

So if the Set-apart Spirit nudges you and you ignore it that is blasphemy (something done or said that shows disrespect for God or sacred things) against the Set-apart Spirit. If you sin and are unaware, then come to realize certain behavior is sin… repent! You Can be forgiven! Believe me! I have broken everyone of the Ten Commandments some more than the rest. Yes, ALL of them. The only ones I struggle with now are the 4th and the 10th. I do not covet my neighbor’s belongings or life…but I would like a better life. Every now and again, I catch myself saying, “Oh! Me too; I would like to have that as well.” I am not denying another their due…I am just praying that I am rewarded for my diligence in life. Now, I know I am more likely to be cursed as Job, as that is the way we become closer to Father Yahweh, but I still cannot stop myself from praying that I do win the PCH! I also worry that I am idolizing and putting things like a television program or an iphone game (cannot have my crops wilting or lose a daily bonus because I forgot to check into the game!!!), before Yahweh. Gluttony one of the deadly sins (The seven deadly sins are wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust, envy, and gluttony.) that falls under coveting and perhaps idolatry! I must have all the Buffy the Vampire Slayer seasons DVDs, same for the Twilight collectable DVDs. I want my share of a meal at the dinner table, with a family of 8 and after cooking it all with little to no help darn straight I want my share! I can walk away from a bag of Lays potato chips…Community Theater Movie Popcorn, well that is another story altogether!!! We all have these tendencies.

If not gluttony the act or practice of eating and drinking to excess. Gluttony is one of the seven deadly sins in Christian tradition. Maybe yours is wrath: strong anger, often with a desire for revenge. Perhaps greed: an overwhelming desire to have more of something such as money than is actually needed. How about sloth: a dislike of work or any kind of physical exertion. Then there is good ole pride: the happy satisfied feeling somebody experiences when having or achieving something special that other people admire / the correct level of respect for the importance and value of your personal character, life, efforts, or achievements. The one that took me along time to conquer- lust: the strong physical desire to have sex with somebody, usually without associated feelings of love or affection. Last definition…envy: the resentful or unhappy feeling of wanting somebody else's success, good fortune, qualities, or possessions / to desire something possessed by somebody else.

I have been working out on the Wii as well as Wii Dance and have recently purchased a Tai Chi DVD… and I am willingly cutting back on what I eat. I refuse to give up my Community Theater Movie Popcorn. I need my popcorn!!! As long as I am willing to pay for it…AND I AM!!! Willing to pay for it that is, in every sense of the word!

I wish to be the virtuous woman spoken of in Proverbs 31. The virtuous woman who keeps the Ten Commandments and does none of the seven deadly sins. If that is my life work and I rise to the calling then I will be Born Again into the Kingdom of Yahweh. That is the true rebirth. You cannot claim to be born again until you die and are reborn a new creature…a new and improved you; truly washed clean of all sins and literally never able to sin again! We have to walk the walk talk the talk and live as He commands and guides in order to enter and to hear, “Well done good and faithful servant.”

This life is nothing compared to all eternity. It is worth it to me to stay married if that is truly the Master’s will and not Satan jerking my chain. I am chained to Father Yahweh through His only begotten son Yahushua and I believe I have the Set apart Spirit living in me. It is the only way I can abstain with our going rubber baby buggy bumpers! I willingly live one day at a time at His leave. Granted every now and again my true nature rise up and I lose patience with Satan’s servants, but greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world!!! I may be their only hope towards salvation. I sincerely believe they are called, I asked in faith and I believe He knocked. The deaf people in this house just aren’t hearing Him and opening their doors! Very frustrating! Well, sad to say, there are no tears in heaven so if they do not make it, all I can say is then that must have been their choice not to be here with me in paradise walking with the King of Kings.

I must be the shining example of how a woman is supposed to behave when she is separated from/married to a non-believer. (In other words Father is saying, “You made your choice…you said vows to Me. Now, even though you do not believe in the church you do believe in Me and know those vows were said to Me not the organization you made them in. How are you to save that man and your children if you quit. For sex? Julie! Shame on you! You know better. It is unimportant compared to their being. Perhaps you are their covering. Instead of saving many, I want you to save your little family. You do not know the work I have for you. Just live each day with Me at the helm and forget about everything else. Serve the consumers who call you and need your help at work. Do your dads bidding and help your mother with her finances. You are to be the example to your children of how to honor ones parents. Now, go witness.  If you pull it off you will be reborn into the Kingdom of Heaven!”)

With that said…I need to go get ready to take my mother out. We are going dancing! I am bringing the son and husband along too! Have a blessed evening, If that Is the Master’s will for you.

The favour of our Master Yahushua Messiah be with the set-apart ones. Amen.

Jewels